So this week there haven’t been many good eats – I’ve been restricting way to much to have had anything particularly interesting apart from the stuff I already blogged about. I am getting back on track though so hopefully next week there’ll be loads of really great stuff. Mostly this week I’ve just had watery porridge and fat-free yogurt for breakfast and then really bland stir fry fried in water not oil (so more like stir-boiled). I did manage to get one nice dinner in though – I had home-baked ciabatta topped with spicy chorizo and fresh tomato sauce and that was really good. I never ever eat chorizo because I literally never eat sausages or pork in general and its so salty so there’s a water retention issue (though the dietician said it’s just a myth that salt makes you retain a load of water – apparently salt levels change day-to-day anyway and your body regulates it’s water levels just fine so it stays pretty stable). But anyway, it was kind of like bruschetta, but a pumped up calorie version and it was really great. Entirely terrifying but I think it might have been tasty. Always hard to tell though, so many different thought processes play into what foods I like that it’s hard to distinguish. I’m pretty sure it was good though.
The few other nice eats from this week include sweet potato falafels from waitrose – they are unbelievably nang (and I don’t use that word lightly). So good in sandwiches and wraps and ciabatta. Basically like sweet little falafel-y bites with raisins and carrot in and stuff. Definitely up there in the big recommendations. Oh and waitrose caramalised onion hummus. Basically I just really love waitrose. I’ve always thought they do the best hummus and this was no exception – and perfect with the falafels. I also had there channa masala as a massive panic dinner when I couldn’t handle the kitchen/cooking and that was really good too actually. Waitrose is definitely the nicest supermarket. All round thumbs up on the waitrose shopping.
Also this week the fam got some Belgique seedy loaf thing. Probably really expensive but definitely worth a trip to Wanstead. It’s really nutty and has just so much crust. All things are good things. Best bread I’ve had in ages (generally I can’t have nice loaves because they don’t come with set portions and nutritional info, but this was worth the hassle of finding the average of similar products to get an idea of calories and weighing out my slices). And I should add that I ate it with Norfolk Preserve blueberry jam from Emmerdale Farm Shop (represent!). Not really supposed to be eating this sort of thing though as I’m meant to be cutting back on fibre. This has meant that this week I’ve been tackling white bread! And you know what, it doesn’t make you starving hungry straight away like you didn’t eat anything. I’m no more hungry than when I eat seedy bread (though seedy bread is definitely better). It’s quite hard as it feels like it has no nutritional value or anything, but I’m still literally never hungry so it’s not making me feel out of control or anything. White sliced bread is still the worst thing, but Marks and Spencer white pita bread and home-baked ciabatta are definitely not even that bad. White bread isn’t as awful and scary as I thought. Still, swapping breads doesn’t bring my fibre intake down all that much – I’m still over double what you’re supposed to eat. Jeez…
Oh and yesterday I had possibly the most indulgent thing I’ve eaten in months – a pear, hazelnut and chocolate tart from Sainsbury’s. They came in individual servings and were only 229kcals so not that much over my allowance. I don’t even have to describe how hard this was to eat for me, but also I don’t think anyone would doubt how nice it was. Plus the boy’s gone to Macedonia so I can eat all the nuts I like.
My last really tasty thing this week is M&S banana, date and oat smoothie. I got some yesterday reduced and I drank some! Majorly terrifying as liquid calories really get me panicked, but at least I didn’t throw this one away – I actually had a serving. And it was really nice and actually more filling than I thought it would be – though again, with 8g of fibre a serving what do you expect? Why are all the best things so full of fibre? I really can’t understand how anyone manages to eat under 18g in a day – I’m lucky if I have under 55g and I’m trying so hard to get it down to 25g but it’s just impossible. I don’t get it.
The bad this week were really bad, but I don’t think anyone will ever even consider some of this edible or even food. Restriction foods are the worst thing ever. Porridge made with 20g oats, 50ml milk (only added so it looked milky to other people) and 200ml water – basically porridge soup it’s so liquid-y, but the idea is that all that water will fill you up for longer. Just plain as well, no sugar or jam or fruit or anything. Really hideous food, tastes so bland and horrible. Oh and watered down soup (again, to be more filling) with 1 small slice of dry, toasted diet bread. That’s a pretty awful meal. And anything fried using water instead of oil pretty much sucks as it just turns out mushy and tasteless. Add that to more green tea than you can possibly imagine and you basically have my entire days food. It got quite bad on some days – under 600kcals. The food you eat when you eat that little is disgusting – it’s the reason I believe that all diets are stupid because what is the point? The lows of this week were pretty low food wise, as you can tell. I can’t believe how long I lived of this rubbish for. Still, the amount I’m eating now does still feel really indulgent and overwhelming, but hopefully it’ll normalise soon.
Last but not least, I have a question for you all – tasty foods which are low in fibre, but still quite satisfying anyone? Because I can never think of anything… Dietician says cut back but I just can’t think of anything that isn’t full of fibre to eat. Hmm…